The crack in everything

We need the people we care about because facing the dark alone is tough there’s a chilling in the bones pulse-quickening fear trickles down the spine the uneasy swallow bracing against what will come next and getting what you don’t want hurts it’s the parting of the skin of the comfort craved not attaining what…

Training to be free (other times)

Everything happened, everything passed, here I return once again after the kicking and screaming are done, the imagining something different, and trying to find the beat in between the real that’s here in my hands and the need that gnaws deep in my belly while striving to find coherence when faith is lost with crumbled…

The moving parts

You get to a point you can’t track all the moving parts the busy bits the needling pauses the sudden starts a part of your mind tunes out and there it goes spinning on its own out of control like it always was You just detached instead of being the movie you step back and…

The way it went

I’ve tried to find shelter in close bonds friends, lovers, family only to find there’s nothing to be found in the ignorance of others’ best intentions I spent years studying intimacy to grasp what’s within and what’s not One day I woke up things wrinkled, things shrunk others grew and this is not how I…

All of my choices

I’m turning into someone I barely recognize those eyes have seen it all she can’t disguise that she doesn’t know it just shows thru the crook in her smile depths hinted at you can barely fathom but you feel the weight of her waves as close as a rider breathing with his horse carrying both  I’m polarizing truth facing down the waves surfing her displays the emotional roller…

On the process of growing older

I let the young years fret away pained with the complex self-importance my thoughts carried opinions erected in my 20s built as pillars to support they ended up transforming into bars cold and heavy with rigid sets of rules until I met a modern day muse her silences pulled me in a siren of my…

Becoming Fearless

Speak my fears to the wind may they blow past us you say I attach to this that I enjoy it as I generate the storm caught in between the grit and your mirrored truth thrust in the torn-to-bits whispered chills knots without solutions that can be seen a funeral for the losses all my…

The seeming

Who is this trapped behind the glass persistently trying to get past an invisible wall of pride who is this who sees through these eyes casting my hooked appetite thoughts caught with a visual net that keeps the construct of sight and insight in a desperate tango dancing in between life and death this impossible…

Together apart

I feel the distance between you and me all the time my imperfect shores aching for your horizon caught within the limits of my elements rough bones of earth sandy coasts draped in silver water skin sunset’s breath colors my hair all hues of pink and orange the sun’s fire rests tonight moonlight croons and…

Fears conquered

The dark edge of the bed screamed muffled in the middle of the night a black glove creeping up against the wall smothered inhibitions he got in too close like a burglar stole what was not his politely jaded pried me open with force and soft words innocence devoured can you open like this?  as…