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thus it was said
with a heavy heart
my virtue declined
as my pride grew
I know it now
the fires of love and hate
must burn out
the push and pull of two
will exhaust

the shaman takes the darkest fears
and turns what he touches into light
rough hands
red spun wool
the gentle clatter of beads
between butter lamp lit primal chants
your dorje to my bell
the whole of none
cloaked in snowy mountains
beneath my white robes
lies the heart’s deepest wealth

the jewel of truth
sacred waters
blood red coral
against turquoise veins
a necklace of skulls
resting on red skin
a vertical third eye
nestled in the valley
four-points the cross
power and will divide
ethic and intent

I funneled myself
squeezed tight in a bind
the suffering of this great divide
between breaths
the process distills insight
opens clarity
where the knots of mind
still hold me closed

you are a glorious sun
that reflected back my own light
fearless and bright
I crave the unified state
a drop of desire
has bled in so deep
it made a bed of my bones
I could have paid for lifetimes
and to find you only to see
I’ve drifted away in the stream
deluded about who I am
the ache of perpetual need is hell
I want to wake from this dream

the Himalayas haven’t yet left my sleep
the trails are a map to the stupa
where I froze the tears of my mothers
the quiet strength of my human heart
that remains fluid against
the nakedness of heat
consuming flames of compassion
eradicating the excess complexity
so the truth pure and fluid
can pour into any cup

pure lineage of perfect knowledge
fill you to the brim
in my heart I bring you in
the tiny corner of my hearth
with bread and beer
sipping off the sands of distant lands
that slipped through my fingers
of different hands countless times

I own nothing except my will
I lost my home and my name
so I’m leaving now
ghaley shu
this parting sorrow
of uncertain tomorrows
who knows where we’ll be
I’ve wandered far to find
eyes like yours they speak to me
and show me there again

our farewell breaks my heart
the jagged key to my prison cell
that I could for once
say goodbye and stay away
to not suffer change
only to get lost in the world
start all over again
crossing the vast unknown

diving into the ocean’s wisdom
on my little boat I’m leaving
ghaley shu
as I say hello I know we must part
this wonderful beginning
is the end in disguise
the freedom and liberty
is in the path
embracing joy
without holding on
to the road