When I speak I’m hollow like my mouth
I feel through a padded wall around me
I can’t filter in all the meanings of what I understand
I crawl inside the medicated moments
Where I can hear myself talk
I’m a blank slate a mirror of today
It’s beyond the loves and losses
It’s a state of default

Underneath the normal
Where I try to live
I feel myself cracking inside my own skin
I live in paradox speaking without lips
Tired and shut off
I want to live again

But I fainted inside myself
And I can’t find the smelling salts
I can’t wake up from the nightmares
My self’s completely lost
I can’t remember who I was
A life ago