I need to let it break inside or
Break something on the outside
This pressure on my chest
A weight of grief that won’t recess
My flesh is scarred with the use that you’ve left on it
My head is a mess of screams and scenes
The weight of this pressure unseen
Words like cruel knives
Inscribed behind my eyes
Slut for the times I’ve loved it
Bitch for the times I’ve denied it
Cold when I’ve lied to hide it
Emotion Sex Desire unmet
Fire Rage Pain I can’t connect
My heart elusive I can’t commit

Wash me clean I can’t be clean
Dirty sinner I can’t be redeemed
Waste me tonight on this ocean of excess
Sorrow bring me dissolution, drown my death

This silent divisive union of comfortable wounding
Inside here I can connect with something
I’m empty without you to fill the void
I gorge this hollow till I’m destroyed
I need the filler in my hole
Forget the killer of my soul
Stuff it all down till I’m full
Brimming over the top
Retch it all out and feel the pull
Once again to make it stop

Wash me clean I can’t be clean
Dirty sinner I can’t be redeemed
Waste me tonight on this ocean of excess
Sorrow bring me dissolution drown my death

Take this filth and blood off my hands
I need one moment of peace
One moment without this need
That eats me alive with reprimands
Guilt shadows me
I want to have mediocrity
Avoiding the reality
I’m the maker of my toys
Where did I lose my choice?

Wash me clean I can’t be clean
Dirty sinner I can’t be redeemed
Waste me tonight on this ocean of excess
Sorrow bring me dissolution drown my death

I cannot stop
I cannot stop
This consecution
Help me stop
Help me stop
This dissolution

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